welcoming grief

[JonW]

"For me and my son who is only 2 and so vulnerable and precious. It has been such a long hard road but it has brought me to mindfulness which I know is what I have been searching for my whole life. "

That's such a lovely thought and echoes what I felt when I first discovered mindfulness. It was like coming home to something I'd been searching for my whole life without knowing it.
All best,
Jon

[FeeHutch]

I hope this is as helpful for the rest of you as I am. It's ok not to be ok is such an important truth for me right now.

[piedwagtail91]

I hope this is as helpful for the rest of you as I am. It's ok not to be ok is such an important truth for me right now.

i can relate to that fee.that's exactly where I'm at.

[Hopendreams]

In the book "Dropping ashes on the Buddha" there is a chapter called The Story of Sul. It is a wonderful story about a little girl and at the end of the story Sul is a grandmother who's granddaughter just died. I think this story could help you in dealing with your grief. I wish you well.

[JonW]

Dropping Ashes On The Buddha is a terrific book. A really cool introduction to Zen. Very wise. Very funny too.

[GirlcalledGed]

Thank you all. I am at a cross roads at this time in my life, trying to work out what is the best course of action for me and my son. The decision will affect the rest of our lives. We are going to move but I am not sure whether to do it on our own or as a family. His dad isn't particularly bothered. I have been let down and hurt by everyone I should have been able to rely on in the past 3 years and I refuse to believe I deserve that. I deserve to be loved. I am re-learning to love myself but I am human. Anyway my mind swings day to day working out what I should do and I am no further and exhausted by it. I 'know' that 'not knowing' is all I can be at the moment and I can only be patient. But that is such a struggle. I have never known what I should do with myself (except have my children) so I am worried that 'not knowing' will be a permanent state. Thank you all. I am reading John and myla kabat Zinn's everyday blessings at the moment which is wonderful. I look forward to reading the recommendations in this post soon.