Tue Oct 21, 2014 2:24 pm
I just joined this forum and I just read this question, even though it is more than a month old. Here is my take: I was initiated into TM in 1970 and as a student, the cost was $30.! I have done TM off and on my whole life. I have been to Retreats, called residence courses and have gone for a year here and there without ever missing a twice daily 20 minute regimen. I even lived in the basement of a TM center. I have undergone "checking" many times by a TM teacher. This is how I practiced it and was taught it: The Beatles, when they were with Maharishi, wrote a song that says it best: "I'm fixing a hole where the rain gets in and keeps my mind from wandering, where it will go..."
TM is supposed to be "effortless", so once the mantra is planted in the mind during initiation, it is always there and it just comes in a very subtle manner--it's not something you forcibly try an stay with. In other words to start, you just sit comfortably and observe how thoughts naturally arise in the mind, and when you do, you just gently bring your attention to the mantra. the mantra can be very subtle. The mind wanders off in thoughts and when you realize this has happened, you just come back to the mantra. So, the mind wanders a lot, but thoughts slow down and become more subtle too, just like the mantra, and little by little, the mind settles down and I find that I get to a point of more and more calm. The breath slows down more and more until sometimes the breathing is very shallow, and even stops momentarily.
Now, I have read some very distasteful things about Maharishi, namely a book called "Call No Man Master", by Joyce Colin-Smith published in 1988. She was his personal secretary in England way back in the early days. She claims that he had some distasteful characteristics, like fooling around with the young female devotees. That and the reason the Beatles left the movement was because he hit on Mia Farrow. Not that sex is bad, but it just seems rather base for a person that is enlightened to be so lustful.
All that being said, I have simply substituted the breath for the mantra, but more than that, I don't just let my mind wander off--I try to keep my attention on my breath, or on bodily sensations with SOME effort. The effort is gentle and not forced, simply, when I realize my mind is overcome with thoughts, I gently bring my attention back to the breath or my interior sensations.
It is a subtle thing and not a black and white issue (I see it as a grey scale). I don't try and control the breath in any way (except when I begin I will usually take some slow deep breaths to settle down.) I usually go back and forth between the breath, even if it is stopped (dont worry, it will start again quite naturally), interior bodily sensations, and thinking). I am meditating now for 30-40 minutes.
So, I do try to stay with present moment awareness, but not in a harsh or rigid manner. There is more to say, but I hope this helps. I hope you get this post.