How to continue when things have changed

[rockbust]

Hello , I have been practicing mindfulness for around 3 years. In the past I have gone thru programs of CBT to try and "stop" my anxiety and panic attacks. only to find it was temporary . Several years ago after having a injury my life took a bad turn. I became obsessed in thought about my injury and it led me to a point where I was in fear to do anything. The stories my mind told me were without a doubt the entire "truth".
Then I joined a group for anxiety and was exposed to mindfulness meditation. I bought the book from Prof Williams and for the first time in my life I was able to become aware of my thoughts. I meditated everyday or so for several years.

Fast forward: I have now moved to a new location and began working full time in construction which is extremely demanding on my body (almost 60 years old). I no longer have the mindfulness group and there is none around me. While I am happy I can once again function i have constant injuries which can lead quickly to many "unmindfulness" days of fears obsessions and memories.
While I still do meditate once a week or so, I just can not seem to get my practice into a good routine. I understand the importance of this and have no doubt it can continue to change my life for the positive but i still can not seem to put it back together after relocating. Hmm maybe those thoughts I just wrote are not really the "truth" and I never really had great practice habits before I moved? maybe they are just another story my thoughts are telling me?

[JonW]

Hi rockbust,
Have you thought of starting your own meetup group? That way you can get together with others and meditate together. Easy to set up through meetup.com and fairly cheap to run.
Cheers,
Jon

[rockbust]

I have thought about it. Never thought about meetup.com. thanks for the info.