I am and at the same time I am not

[Stacie]

So these past days I have experienced something unusual. Though not the first time when I practice mindfulness, this is the first time I have this feeling.
I hear this ringing silence in my ears. Now like never I have this feeling, like I have no body, and I am only my eyes, that are watching ( it might be high level of concentration, though)
But I also have this sensation like I am and at the same time I'm not. Yesterday, I even got anxious, that I might forget to breath properly, because of this.

For example I know where I am NOW, but have no idea where I was in past seconds, and no idea(concerns) wherever I'll be in the next seconds. I know that I was, I have memory records of actions I've done, but at the same time I feel like I wasn't. On large scale I have this feeling that everything stopped, though I know that the world is moving outside. Static and at the same dynamic. Alive or not alive for me it is like the same, happening at the same time.
Does it sound sane? Because it does make me anxious, and I have anxiety as per se.

Waiting for your answer!

P.S. I'm sure you have read similar stories, but I just feel I need to connect with similar minds

Thank you!

[Gareth]

Hi Stacie,

Welcome to the forum!

Have you ever had input from a qualified mindfulness teacher?

[alexcr87]

Hi,

I remembering reading all sorts of things can happen while meditating. I sometimes have nausea which forces me to open my eyes. From what I remember, the things I read simply said to observe, that eventually this shall pass, too.

Sorry I can't help any further, I'll let the other more advanced people speak.

Alex

[JonW]

Hi Stacie,
Welcome to the forum.
What you have written sounds entirely sane and sounds like one of the many states of mind that meditation can open up.
It would be useful to know how you are going about learning mindfulness and the kinds of meditations you are doing.
For the time being, simply notice that you are having these feelings/observations and gently bring your attention back to whatever your anchor is - your breath, sound, bodily sensations etc. If you need to do that a hundred times during meditation, then do that a hundred times.
Best wishes,
Jon

[RoyceDes]

I've not experienced anything like this, but I'm glad that something like this is still considered normal. It sounds somewhat distressing. I guess like with everything else, you just have to observe it and move on.