To Think or not To Think?
Posted: Wed Nov 21, 2018 1:53 am
HI all,
I've been practising sitting meditation and body scan for 3-4 weeks now. Although it's very short amount of time to feel something positive out of practices, I already can see some changes in my behaviour. I started catching moments, where my mind goes crazy dramatizing and making 'obvious' conclusions about situations I have on daily basis. I started eating a lot less than I would. Now I hate eating and watching TV. I started responding mindfully on some critical sutuations where I would be either nervous or behave usually before. This is a lot to take from practises for such a short period.
But some questions still intrigue me.
Now I usually walk to my apartment to have a lunch as I live like 10 minutes away from my office. I like 30 minutes of body scan or sitting meditation before lunch at home. So I try to be in the moment, pay attention on present moment and my surrounding while I walk to lunch and back to work. Obviously, while doing that my mind tries to think about various stuff. Most of it is either plans after work, or some wierd situation in the past, or some hypothetical situations I build up and try to 'solve' that situation. They were with me all the time starting from my childhood. But it's so cool that I started catching this moments now. And I can see how it's a waste of energy for nothing and I can imagine it can ruin my life as it can build some very unexpected behaviours.
BUT, now sometimes some very simple, yet insightful ideas can come to my mind, especially during or after meditations. It can be a new perspective, openings about like 'oh, why I'm doing this all the time?', or 'Why I'm looking to my phone and checking my email for 5th time in an hour?' I usually gently let it go and keep focusing on my breath while I'm meditating. While walking, I try to focus on walking.
I'm little bit unsure if those 'aha' moments where I think I should take a moment and think about this new thought and feel the new perspectives are really needed. On the one hand, it's just thoughts, on the other hand, sometimes I have a goosebumps on those new thoughts and it's something new that I'm coming to it myself rather than reading it in books and forgetting them the very next hour.
If anyone has opinion on this matter, I would love to hear it.
Thanks,
Akmal
I've been practising sitting meditation and body scan for 3-4 weeks now. Although it's very short amount of time to feel something positive out of practices, I already can see some changes in my behaviour. I started catching moments, where my mind goes crazy dramatizing and making 'obvious' conclusions about situations I have on daily basis. I started eating a lot less than I would. Now I hate eating and watching TV. I started responding mindfully on some critical sutuations where I would be either nervous or behave usually before. This is a lot to take from practises for such a short period.
But some questions still intrigue me.
Now I usually walk to my apartment to have a lunch as I live like 10 minutes away from my office. I like 30 minutes of body scan or sitting meditation before lunch at home. So I try to be in the moment, pay attention on present moment and my surrounding while I walk to lunch and back to work. Obviously, while doing that my mind tries to think about various stuff. Most of it is either plans after work, or some wierd situation in the past, or some hypothetical situations I build up and try to 'solve' that situation. They were with me all the time starting from my childhood. But it's so cool that I started catching this moments now. And I can see how it's a waste of energy for nothing and I can imagine it can ruin my life as it can build some very unexpected behaviours.
BUT, now sometimes some very simple, yet insightful ideas can come to my mind, especially during or after meditations. It can be a new perspective, openings about like 'oh, why I'm doing this all the time?', or 'Why I'm looking to my phone and checking my email for 5th time in an hour?' I usually gently let it go and keep focusing on my breath while I'm meditating. While walking, I try to focus on walking.
I'm little bit unsure if those 'aha' moments where I think I should take a moment and think about this new thought and feel the new perspectives are really needed. On the one hand, it's just thoughts, on the other hand, sometimes I have a goosebumps on those new thoughts and it's something new that I'm coming to it myself rather than reading it in books and forgetting them the very next hour.
If anyone has opinion on this matter, I would love to hear it.
Thanks,
Akmal