In need of enlightened advice!
Posted: Fri May 08, 2015 6:57 pm
So yeah, I'm 18. Im new here. I feel pretty young to be on this website, but hey, maybe some of you gurus can help me out.
I kinda went in and out of depression for three years, and was constantly anxious about almost everything. So I started getting into philosophy and reading books on law of attraction and nietsche etc. in a hope to try and think my way out of being depressed. But that only made things a whole lot worse. My brain literally wouldn't stop from when I woke up to when I went to bed, I felt like I had to fight of every single negative thought.
So, anyway. In pursuit of trying to figure out what life's all about I stumbled upon the "power of now", and i was like damnnnnn. I was off on my Easter break so I was just chilling at home most of the day, but I started bringing awareness to the simplest tasks, and taking long walks. seeing and hearing for the first time really. It was awesome.
But then I went back to uni, and seemed to fall back into the same thought patterns I had been in. I was able to have presence, at times, but then I'd fall into the stream of thinking and become unconscious.
see I find it stressful living with my roommate, we didn't get along, I know that mindfulness is the ability to not label anything. but it seems like I already have this situation labeled, how do I maintain mindfulness when i have a certain situation that I have to face everyday that almost automatically causes me to be stressed and think about it?
I kinda went in and out of depression for three years, and was constantly anxious about almost everything. So I started getting into philosophy and reading books on law of attraction and nietsche etc. in a hope to try and think my way out of being depressed. But that only made things a whole lot worse. My brain literally wouldn't stop from when I woke up to when I went to bed, I felt like I had to fight of every single negative thought.
So, anyway. In pursuit of trying to figure out what life's all about I stumbled upon the "power of now", and i was like damnnnnn. I was off on my Easter break so I was just chilling at home most of the day, but I started bringing awareness to the simplest tasks, and taking long walks. seeing and hearing for the first time really. It was awesome.
But then I went back to uni, and seemed to fall back into the same thought patterns I had been in. I was able to have presence, at times, but then I'd fall into the stream of thinking and become unconscious.
see I find it stressful living with my roommate, we didn't get along, I know that mindfulness is the ability to not label anything. but it seems like I already have this situation labeled, how do I maintain mindfulness when i have a certain situation that I have to face everyday that almost automatically causes me to be stressed and think about it?